Showing posts with label God. Show all posts
Showing posts with label God. Show all posts

Jan 23, 2008

WHY why why???

We were having worship last Sunday and we sang the song " Shout to the Lord" where there's a portion there that says.."mountains bow down and the seas will roar at the sound of Your Name."


THen, after the worship we all sat down and saw my daughter, Tricia thinking deeply...and asked, "Why the mountains bow down Amma?"..." Because the mountains worship God too" , I managed to answer but somehow I knew there will always be a follow up question. With her eyebrows crossed from thinking, she retorted, " But the mountains are hard Amma, they can't bow down!!" Good the Pastor was already starting his sermon so I told Tricia to keep quiet and listen to the Pastor..hahahah!! Nakalusot!

That's the challenge now of having a 3 yr going to be 4 year old child. THe questions are never ending, the reasons , excuses are limitless and at the end of the day I just get tir ed trying answer all the questions, listening to all her reasons and excuses. Hahahahah! I can't imagine if my Li'l boy will be like his Ate, maybe I'll grow old fast...LOL!

Dec 29, 2007

Overstay

Out of our busyness and my forgetfulness (can I blame my C-section operation?) we didn't realize until last week that Tricia and I were supposed to exit the country on Nov. 26 for border run. It was a good thing that Jesu was going to the border for some transactions on that Saturday, so the night before that we were talking about his trip. While we were talking, he thought hard and with a worried look in his face he asked me, "When are you supposed to do border run?". Then without answering him, I immediately got up and looked for my passport, my heart was already beating fast. When I was going up, I vividly remembered that the last time I went to Malaysia was in August of my brother in laws wedding and haven't gone out ever since LYle was born. That means we've overstayed for almost a month!

I searched for my passport upstairs and couldn't find it. When I came down, I already saw my Hubby looking at my passport and Tricia's passport. THen, he said, "I think we're in trouble." Without any word both of us went to the living room and were silent for several minutes. Both thinking deeply.

Tricia and I overstayed the country for 23 days!!! And if you're in Thailand, you have to pay a big chunk of money per day times 2 ( for tricia too) for overstay. And when we calculated it, it was so huge!!! The amount totaled MORE than our month's salary. whew!
I thought that will be a long night for both of us. So many thoughts already ran through my mind. So, what will happen to our planned Noche Buena? What about the buying of gifts for the kids and family? Will it be a lonely Christmas for us? Most importantly, how to pay our house rental, bills and what about our daily needs, our FOOD and etc. if all our salary will be paid for the fine.
After all these doubtful thoughts, I prayed and entrusted everything to GOd. Like a little child, I even told God, "Lord what will happened now to all our Christmas plans?" I was really like a small girl who was so excited for Christmas (more excited than Tricia) And immediately, it was impressed in my heart as if God was saying, "Isn't Christmas is not all about parties or even giving of gifts but Christmas is about ME." And like a child, corrected by the Father, I just said, "Yeah, that's right. I'm sorry." And with that peace flooded into my heart.
Then before I slept, I read my devotional book by C.H. Spurgeon. And wow! It spoke right through my heart. All my doubts, all my anxieties was revealed and rebuked ( ouch!) but at the end I got strengthened.
Here is an excerpt of my reading:
If the disposal of the lot is the Lord's, whose is the
arrangement of our whole life?If the simple casting of a lot is guided by HIm,
how much more the events of our entire life- especially when we are told by our
blessed Savior, "The very hairs of your head are all numbered" (Matt.10:30). IT
would bring a holy calm over your mind, dear friend, if you were always to
remember this.
When a man is anxious, he cannot pray with faith. ...Be wise,
attend to obeying, and let Christ manage the providing. Come and survey your
Father's storehouse, and ask whether He will let you starve while He has laid up
so great an abundance in HIs garner. If He remembers even the sparrows, will He
forget one of the least of His poor children? " Cast thy burden upon the Lord,
and he will sustain thee. He will never suffer the righteous to be moved" (Psalm
55:22)
With all God's assurance and promise. I slept peacefully like a baby.
THen indeed true to God's word, he sustained us and He provided for us. When we went to the immigration the following day, the officer only asked us to pay half of the total amount. He did not charge for Tricia's overstay anymore. WOw! So, it means we still have half of our salary left! So, at that time, my HUbby and I decided to cancel all our Christmas plans and stick to just spending the necessary things to make ends meet. But two days after, our friend told us that there is this group of people who wants to transfer money in our account. Realy?!! And you know how much? Almost the exact amount that we paid the Thai immigration! Wow! God is truly amazing isn't He? I'm always amazed with the way He provides and His grace for us.
So, that's our overstay experience. Once again, we experienced God's hand move in our lives and we're forever grateful and humbled. Glory to God!

Dec 18, 2007

The Christmas Story

When I was putting my li'l girl to sleep, I read to her the Birth of Jesus from Favorite Bible Stories by CLiff Richards. It was the first time I read the story from this particular book to her since it has been missing for quite sometime.
Anyways, the book was very well written and the birth story was described well that while reading to my girl, I was also touched and teary eyed. It brought me back in time.
What would have God felt when His only Son was born in a smelly, stable with no people to witness but just the lowly animals?
What would have God felt, entrusting HIs only SOn to 'inexperienced" parents, Mary and Joseph? Mary was very young at that time.
What would have God felt knowing the future of this baby, His Son, the King of kings and the Lord of lords to be ridiculed, tortured, and crucified 33 years later?
As a parent, I somehow felt what could have been the natural feeling of a parent. With a two month old baby, I couldn't imagine my baby being born in a smelly stable with just the animals, I couldn't entrust my baby in the care of inexperienced caretakers, I couldn't bear even the thought of my children being hurt or be in any pain. Of course, God could have felt all those feelings as a parent. But what did He do? He sacrificed His Son, Jesus. It must have also been very hurting for Him to do this. But He did it. He gave His ONLY, begotten Son, because He loves us. So that you and me might have eternal life if only we BELIEVE. Amazing love.
What is man that You are mindful of him.
And the son of man that you visit him?
For you have made him a little lower than angels.
And You have crowned him with glory and honor.
You have made him to have dominion over the works of Your hands
You have put all things under his feet. Isaiah 8:4-6
I'll forever be grateful to you, my Lord, my GOD.....

Dec 15, 2007

Baking, gifts and the GIFT

Started my day with baking lessons with our Korean friends' kids. I taught them how to bake brownies and they really enjoyed it. We'll have another baking session the following Saturday. :)


Lunch! After the baking session...:)

Forgot to take pictures during baking..and I thought I'm already a certified blogger!


And since, I already started baking, I thought why not go on with it and bake for our Christmas goodies give aways. So, I managed to make a few boxes for my give aways and we immediately delivered to some of our friends this evening. It's really a joy to give. Even if it's just a simple gift for friends but it's a nice feeling to see their appreciation for being remembered.

The Christmas goodies!!



It's nice to have Christmas. It gives us a chance to give just like what God did for us. He gave. He gave is only SON for us to have eternal life. Wow! It's just the best gift we have ever received. We just couldn't outgive God. Writing about this now reminds me of my favorite "Christmas Song". Nope, it's not Joy to the world not Silent night but the song entitled, We are the Reason.








Anyways, watch this and be blessed just as how I'm touched everytime I hear the song. During this Christmas Season, may our HEarts and minds be for our Lord Jesus alone.

Dec 11, 2007

Children are a real blessing


The stage mother in me has surfaced again..heheh! So, if you're tired of moms continually babbling about their children, then you know what to expect from this entry. :)..so better make a slow move and hop to another blog.

Seriously, I'm just so blessed with my little girl. Here are her stories for today:

This morning, we went to the Center to send Annie, who's been a volunteer at the Center (for 5 months) to the train station. Before we left for the station, all of us ( 9 of us) gathered together to pray for Annie. My Hubby asked one of the staff to pray. And while he was praying for her, my daughter whispered in my ear, "Amma, I want to pray for Aunty Annie too." So, after our friend's prayer, I told Annie that Tricia wants to pray for her too. " Sure, Trish, thank you!" was Annie's reply. Here was Tricia's prayer. " Lord, I pray for Aunty Annie, Lord. Bless her Lord. SHe miss her Amma and Appa so much. Her home is far far away. I pray that as she rides the bus , she will be fine. In Jesus' name, Amen!" Wow, it was just so sweet of her that Annie ended up with tears in her eyes. As Tricia's mom, I'm just so blessed with her that as young as she is, she already knows how to pray publicly. I think prayer has already been ingrained in her because there are times too that I overhear her praying aloud by herself. Like the time I was at the kitchen washing dishes and she was bathing inside the toilet and I heard her pray aloud, "Lord, let me not have bad dreams anymore..."

The team with Annie (the one with the yellow bag)


Then this afternoon, I told Tricia that our activity for the day will be to sort out her toys. I asked her if it'll be okay for her to give away some of her toys to the kids in the village. She thought long and hard and said, "Okay". So, I told her that I will go through her toys and she decides what toy to give or not. While I was saying this, I was thinking, " Oh uh, maybe this is a bad idea because she might end up keeping everything I show her". But anyways, I gave it a try. I took her basketful of toys and went through her soft toys first. She has lots of soft toys mostly given as gifts to her and most of them are her favorites. So, I put out her toys (oh and bags too) one by one and asked, "Do you want to give this away?". Surprisingly, she said "yes" to many of the toys including her favorite Barney which sings everytime you press the tummy. Well, maybe she has outgrown Barney by this time. She only kept her very favorite ones like Rabbit, Eeyore, Kanga and etc. She even helped me rummaged through her basket and offered to give away some of the other toys and bags. She actually gave quite a lot! One big plastic bag full of toys. Her basket is not overflowing anymore. She also asked me at one point, " Are we giving this to the T---- children, because they don't have toys?" I'm just blessed again because material things don't have much hold on her and she has a heart to give to other children. I expected that as a child, she would want to keep all her toys because in the first place it's hers, but not my little girl and it's a great blessing for her to have such generous heart.

Okay, I think it's enough babbling for now about my li'l girl, if not I could just go on and on and on until no one would want to read my blogs anymore because it's already boring. :)


I'm just blessed and I thank God for my li'l girl. He has given me the privilege to take care of such beautiful children.



Dec 8, 2007

Everday surprises..

Earlier, I planned to hang Christmas stockings for my little girl and give her small gifts each day. But after I read about the Advent Calendar from Janet and her friend's blogs, I liked it's concept and decided to use it instead. It's a unique kind of Calendar where in there'll be small surprises attached in each date until Christmas Day. I found it a great idea so that Tricia will have some idea when is the 'real' Christmas Day because ever since we put up the Christmas Tree, she's always been asking, " Is it Christmas already?Is Debo Ate coming now?". She's also looking forward for that day because we told her favorite Ates are coming for Christmas.
Anyway, Last night I made my own Advent Calendar too..hehehe! it's kinda primitive since it was already the 5th of December so, I just have to make whatever I have at home. It's a good thing I found something a green and red bag from Myanmar with strings. Since it's green/red (Christmas colors) then I decided to use it. Then I realized the strings are convenient since I could just hanged the gifts with it.
This morning when Tricia woke up, I read to her the The Birth of Jesus (Christmas Story).I'm sure she was surprised why I'm reading to her a story after she woke up ( I only read to her before she sleeps) but I guess she was still too groggy to ask. Oh but before that,I asked her, "Why do we celebrate Christmas, Trish?, and she said, " Because we have a Christmas tree!"..hehehe! Ok, so I thought, I really have to explain to her the real reason for Christmas. So, I started out with the Birth of Jesus and why it's very important and significant to us. Of course I used words that she can understand but somehow I'm not so sure up to what extent a three and half year old kid can understand (about sin, Jesus taking our place for our sins and etc.) but anyways, I continued my explanation and she was listening intently. Then I ended my story that God gave us a GIft and that is Jesus and because God gave us a gift, so we must give gifts too! Then, I showed her the Advent Calendar with all the gifts hanging. Her sleepy eyes suddenly widened and asked, " Is that all for me?"
Tricia with the primitive Advent Calendar ( looks like a sari-sari store)..hahaah!

See her eyes??? so BIG ...excited!


She was so happy to see all the gifts and I told her that she can only open one gift everytime she wakes up in the morning. With this explanation, I got in trouble later in the evening because she was begging me to open another gift. Then I told her again "Only when you wake up tomorrow". Then she retorted, " Amma, I'll sleep and then wake up, and then sleep and wake up again ....so I can open ALLLLL of them!!" (with expression pa gyd na ang ALLLL) TOINK!!
Anyways,I think I'll make this kind of a ritual everyday to start with a story about the birth of Jesus ( different versions/ aspects of course so she won't get bored) first before she opens her surprises. Because as a parent, there is no greater joy for me than to know that my children will learn to trust in Jesus as their Saviour when they're in the age of accountabilty. I don't want it to be just something in their 'minds' and retort the 'correct' answers to every questions when it comes to spirituality, but I want them to really EXPERIENCE the life changing power that Jesus gives. That's my prayer and my hearts desire. :)

Dec 4, 2007

An excerpt from the "Invisible Woman"

I got this article from one of the sites that I've been subscribing to. It's an excerpt from a book by Nicole Johnson, it's for all the mothers out there especially the Stay at Home Moms it's so much an encouragement to read this especially at the low and tiring times that we have. It's a great reminder for God's purposes for us. It's quite a lenghty read but it's worth it so, read on...
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It all began to make sense, the blank stares, the lack of response, the way one of the kids will walk into the room while I'm on the phone and ask to be taken to the store. Inside I'm thinking, "Can't you see I'm on the phone?"
Obviously not. No one can see if I'm on the phone, or cooking, or sweeping the floor, or even standing on my head in the corner, because no one can see me at all. I'm invisible.
Some days I am only a pair of hands, nothing more: Can you fix this? Can you tie this? Can you open this?
Some days I'm not a pair of hands; I'm not even a human being. I'm a clock to ask, "What time is it?" I'm a satellite guide to answer, "What number is the Disney Channel?" I'm a car to order, "Right around 5:30, please."
I was certain that these were the hands that once held books and the eyes that studied history and the mind that graduated summa cum laude -but now they had disappeared into the peanut butter, never to be seen again. She's going, going ...she's gone!
One night, a group of us were having dinner, celebrating the return of a friend from England. Janice had just gotten back from a fabulous trip, and she was going on and on about the hotel she stayed in. I was sitting there, looking around at the others all put together so well. It was hardnot to compare and feel sorry for myself as I looked down at my out-of-style dress; it was the only thing I could find that was clean. My unwashed hair was pulled up in a banana clip and I was afraid I could actually smell peanut butter in it. I was feeling pretty pathetic, when Janice turned to me with a beautifully wrapped package, and said, "I brought you this."
It was a book on the great cathedrals of Europe. I wasn't exactly sure why she'd given it to me until I read her inscription: "To Charlotte, with admiration for the greatness of what you are building when no one sees."
In the days ahead I would read - no, devour - the book. And I would discover what would become for me, four life-changing truths, after which I could pattern my work: No one can say for certain who built the great cathedrals - we have no record of their names. These builders gavetheir whole lives for a work they would never see finished. They made great sacrifices and expected no credit. The passion of their building was fueled by their faith that the eyes of God saw everything.
A story in the book told of a rich man who came to visit the cathedral while it was being built, and he saw a workman carving a tiny bird on the inside of a beam. He was puzzled and asked the man, "Why are you spending so much time carving that bird into a beam that will be covered bythe roof? No one will ever see it."
And the workman replied, "Because God sees."
I closed the book , feeling the missing piece fall into place. It was almost as if I heard God whispering to me, "I see you, Charlotte. I see the sacrifices you make every day, even when no one around you does. No act of kindness you've done, no sequin you've sewn on, no cupcake you've baked, is too small for me to notice and smile over. You are building a great cathedral, but you can't see right now what it will become."
At times, my invisibility feels like an affliction. But it is not a disease that is erasing my life. It is the cure for the disease of my own self-centeredness. It is the antidote to my strong, stubborn pride. I keep the right perspective when I see myself as a great builder. As one of the people who show up at a job that they will never see finished, to work on something that their name will never be on.
The writer of the book went so far as to say that no cathedrals could ever be built in our lifetime because there are so few people willing to sacrifice to that degree.
When I really think about it, I don't want my son to tell the friend he's bringing home from college for Thanksgiving, "My mom gets up at 4 in the morning and bakes homemade pies, and then she hand bastes a turkey for three hours and presses all the linens for the table." That wouldmean I'd built a shrine or a monument to myself. I just want him to want to come home. And then, if there is anything more to say to his friend, to add, "You're gonna love it there."
As mothers, we are building great cathedrals. We cannot be seen if we're doing it right. And one day, it is very possible that the world will marvel, not only at what we have built, but at the beauty that has been added to the world by the sacrifices of invisible women.

Oct 2, 2007

Ano ba talaga, Amma/Appa?

We are fickle minded parents, that's what I realized today. :)


Just a few days ago, we saw this 15 seater commuter van and my Hubby told our 3 1/2 old daughter, to pray that God will give us a van like that. We have been really desiring..(or maybe dreaming?) to have a van for the 'work' since a lot of people and visitors come over and it's quite difficult to transport them, aside from the fact that we always cross the neighboring country bringng a lot of things.


So, back to the day when they saw the Commuter Van parked at the basement of the mall. The van was left opened, so they saw how spacious it was and it also had a TV inside. Tricia just loved the TV and so when my hubby asked her if she like to have a van like that..she immediately said "Yes" and prayed.


Then just this evening, we went to Tesco to buy some breakfast and other stuff for our coming visitors who'll be staying for 3 days. We bought quite a lot of stuff since we have 21 visitors coming ( yes, that's why we'll really need a van!) and as a result we got more than 10 raffle coupons for a Nissan Triton Pick- up truck as the first prize! So, while my hubby was filling up the raffle coupons, he was becoming lazy and I had to urge him to go on writing because, what if we might win the 1st prize?hehehehe!!..So, that made us thinking that having a Pick-up truck ( instead of a Van) won't be so bad at all.


So, after the coupons was placed inside the box, My Hubby and Tricia made a trip again to see the Pick up truck that's to be given away as the 1st prize...so, he asked Tricia to pray for the pick up truck...but surprisingly, our little girl, retorted, "No, I don't want that because I already prayed for a Van!"....hahahah!! See this, children can be more consistent with what they want and be so sure of their prayers...but Amma and Appa can be fickled minded somtimes..hehehehe!